Sheep in Wolf Skin Chapter 19

There are many who dislike me strongly among my "own". Why? I am just as arrogant and self certain as my forefathers! Today shall one be modest and humble and not like me say that, "I have the world's best company in prison - myself." This created irritation among many and they disliked me for it. What I say to them is that modesty and humbility are jewish christian virtues. A heathen shall never be humble or modest. We have no reason to be this, we are heathens!

We all have reasons to feel better than all others, we are better. To believe any thing else is a jewish thought. The christians are envious because they realize, without admitting it, that we heathens are better than them. They realize that we all have a reason to be proud, that we all have reason to go with the nose high in the air with the chest forward. Envy creates perversity and hate, therefore I am disliked, because they are envious! It is obviously understandable that they are envious, for they have a reason for it. In the papers I am accused of playing the scene in court. This builds also an envy from the journalists, for what they saw was a proud heathen who didn't let himself be frightened a second in the jewish society's court system. This is unbelievable for weak scared christians or humanists, so when they saw a proud heathen present himself as such, they wouldn't accept it. They know that they themselves would have shit their pants and shaken of fear if they had been in the same situation. They will not admit that I am stonger than them. The result is that, "I played the scene in court" and because I actually, "didn''t understand which situation I was in" they get to look at it as if I actually was only a youth who no one ought to take seriously. They convinced themselves that it was therefore I was not "crippled to the cross" in the court. I am certain that I was the only one who didn't play the part in the courtroom. The journalists cursed that I didn't give them a reason to say something negative about me in the papers. They sat and rubbed their hands and hoped that I would fall in tears to such a degree that they could write how weak I was in the papers the next day. They sat and hoped that the law psychiatrist said the opposite. Etc......

I got the characteristic of one who had "insufficiently developed mental faculties." This was a gift for the journalists, finally something negative. That this with "insufficiently developed mental faculties" goes on, in my instance, that I don't have any respect for non-german people's lives and without hesitating to eliminate one and all of them here in our country with out remorse was something the journalists didn't write in the paper. They would of course said that, "insufficiently developed mental faculties" should be something that could be understood as unintelligent, childish, and spiritually weak. Another thing that I have made noticable is the media's use of pictures. I am naturally blond, have clear blue eyes I always see pictures in the paper where the pictures are done so dark they look like I have black or dark brown hair and dark eyes. A Tv channel always shows my face to make it look like an awful "satanist". I colored my hair black once in 1992 and I did it in order to emphasize my white skin, not to look "evil". I enjoy that a German journalist wrote in a paper that I looked like "an angel's shape with the rage of a Viking!" Obviously a compliment.

It's the papers that have created "the satanist environment" which exists today. Had it not been for the paper's dipiction of us as black haired satanists there would not be a satanist environment. I am misued by the media to embody the evil satanist, and am made as a symbol of evil that leads all satanists. This is ridiculous. I cannot endure "satanists", either a Leveyist or followers of Aleister Crowley! I can't stand black hair, something that explains why I only colored my hair once and no more. I can't stand thin youths in black leather jackets. I can't stand "devil worshippers", they are just like jewish christians. I can't stand "black metal" the only metal I hear is Norwegian Ayran music like DARKTHRONE or my own music BURZUM, and I can't stand being compared with other inferiors.